Diary, Vol. III. 1860-1861. Contemplative Theology. Grains from the Lord's table.

To the Brotherhood of M. [5] books [6]:

1). Chrysostom. 2 volumes of the Discourses on the Gospel of Matthew.

2). On asceticism. — The Tales of the Holy Fathers.

3). Bright Week of Ignatius. [7]  [8]

Surrender to the Lord as a broken statue to a skilled sculptor, or as a rusted iron to a forging; listen in all things to the Lord, the Renewer of our sin-corrupted nature [9] — and you will be saved. Let us commit ourselves, one another, and all our life to Christ God, the Renewer of our nature, without any doubt.

What is needed in prayer? What should you avoid?

If you do not have money for one with the blight, or dust of the earth, you will not escape frequent torments of the heart, sorrow, sorrow, and distress (Rom. 2:9).

The Lord watches over our every thought.

What does it mean to deny oneself (Matt. 16:24)? It means to renounce one's old, passionate man (cf. Eph. 4:22; Col. 3:9), selfish, inclined to hatred, envy, pride, covetousness, love of money, avarice, irritability, gluttony, drunkenness, theft, adultery, the old man in whom he lives, has his throne, and whom Satan acts and governs [11]. "I, or my old man, completely damaged by sin, completely infected with the breath of the devil, with his will, is good for nothing, except for eternal fire. That is why unrepentant sinners are called stubble, which will be burned with unquenchable fire (cf. Matt. 3:12; Lk. 2:17). "This old man must be completely rejected.

What is required of those who hope for future blessedness? "Truth requires us to trust in virtue.

But it is not enough to deny oneself: one must receive in Jesus Christ a new man, created according to God (in the image of God – Gen. 1:27) and in the righteousness and reverence of truth (Ephesians 4:24).

Write letters to: Fr. Alexander Zuev [12] and Taratin [13].

Money is dust.

Leave to write the book [14].