Raskolnikov understood in part why Sonya did not dare to read to him, and the more he understood this, the more rudely and irritably he insisted on reading. He knew only too well how hard it was for her to betray and denounce all that was hers. He realized that these feelings really were, as it were, a real and long-standing secret of hers, perhaps even from her very adolescence, still in the family, beside her unfortunate father and stepmother, mad with grief, among hungry children, ugly cries and reproaches. But at the same time he knew now, and knew for sure, that although she had been sad and terribly afraid of something, she was now beginning to read, but at the same time she was painfully anxious to read it herself, in spite of all her anguish and all her fears, and it was for him that he should hear, and certainly now, "whatever happens then!" … He read it in her eyes, understood from her ecstatic excitement... She overcame herself, suppressed the throat spasm that had cut off her voice at the beginning of the verse, and continued to read the eleventh chapter of the Gospel of John. So she finished up to the 19th verse:

"And many of the Jews came to Martha and Mary to comfort them in their sorrow for their brother. When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went to meet him; Maria was sitting at home. Then Martha said to Jesus; God! if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But even now I know that whatever you ask of God, God will give you."

Then she stopped again, bashfully anticipating that her voice would tremble and break again.

"Jesus said to her, 'Your brother will rise again.' Martha said to Him, "I know that He will rise again in the resurrection, on the last day." Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me, though he die, shall live. And everyone who lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this? She said to him (and as if taking a breath in pain, Sonya read it separately and forcefully, as if she herself had confessed aloud):

Yes, Lord! I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, who is coming into the world."

She stopped, quickly raised her eyes to him, but quickly overcame herself and began to read further. Raskolnikov sat and listened motionlessly, without turning around, leaning on the table and looking away. Daughters to the 32nd verse.

"And Mary, having come to where Jesus was, and seeing him, fell at his feet; And she said to Him, Lord! if you had been here, my brother would not have died. When Jesus saw her weeping and the Jews who came with her weeping, He Himself was grieved in spirit and was indignant. And he said, Where have you laid him? They said to him: "Lord! Go and see. Jesus shed tears. Then the Jews said, "See how he loved him." And some of them said, "Could not this one, who opened the eyes of the blind man, cause this one also not to die?"

Raskolnikov turned to her and looked at her with excitement: yes, it was so! She was already trembling all over in a real, real fever. He had expected it. She was approaching the word of the greatest and unheard-of miracle, and a feeling of great triumph seized her. Her voice rang like metal; triumph and joy resounded in him and strengthened him. The lines were mixed up in front of her, because her eyes were darkening, but she knew by heart what she was reading. At the last verse: "Could not this one, who opened the eyes of the blind man...", she, lowering her voice, fervently and passionately conveyed the doubt, reproach and blasphemy of the unbelievers, the blind Jews, who now, in a minute, as if struck by thunder, will fall, weep and believe... "And he, he's also blinded and unbelieving, he's going to hear now, he's going to believe, yes, yes! now, now," she dreamed, and she trembled with joyful anticipation.

"But Jesus, again grieving inwardly, comes to the tomb. It was a cave, and a stone lay on it. Jesus says, "Take away the stone." The sister of the deceased, Martha, said to Him: "Lord! already stinks; for four days have he been in the tomb." She struck the word "four" vigorously.

"Jesus said to her, 'Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God? So, they took away the stone from the cave where the deceased lay. And Jesus lifted up his eyes to heaven and said, "Father, I thank you that you have heard me." I knew that You would always hear Me; but I have said these things for the people standing here, that they may believe that you have sent me. And when he had said this, he cried out with a loud voice, Lazarus! Go away. And the dead man came out,

(she read loudly and enthusiastically, trembling and cold, as if she had seen it with her own eyes):

entwined hand and foot with funeral shrouds; and his face was bound with a handkerchief. Jesus said to them, "Loose him; Let him go.

Then many of the Jews who came to Mary and saw what Jesus had done, believed in him."

She did not read further and could not read, closed the book and quickly got up from her chair.