As for Teilhard's translation, you are right: it turned sour and, having tormented us with assurances that no one needed it, somehow cut everything short and shortened. Well, God be with her! Perhaps someone else will help you—I can't ask her to do that any more. I have just given her "Jesus"—no, the second—I don't remember exactly—"Le visage de lumieère"[69] or something of the sort, the author is "un moine de l'Eglise d'Orient"[70] A beautiful thing, but she is always sick and mopey, and things move very slowly. I was tormented with her in general, but now I hope that my défroqué will help me "instruct" her, for some reason (partly deafness) I am not authoritative for her. Once again, I thank you very, very much for your wonderful letters. As far as I remember, you are right that for my father, the attainment of the Eucharist was higher than the dignity or unworthiness of a minister. But at the same time, I remember that somehow this question was not raised sharply at that time. I myself now try with all the strength of my faith not to put one above the other, and I rely on you in this. In general, it's strange: everything was the same (then), and everything is somehow different, there is some great wealth in it!

God bless you!

 s. I.

I hope you don't forget to mention your namesake - according to your sister, he is "trying", even if only out of vanity.  ----------- 

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Dear Yulia Nikolaevna!

Have you received Part II? V. Y.'s memoirs[71] — I'll send it in a few days. And I ask for another Savior.

When I read your regrets about Psherov, I again remembered the words of Metr. Evlogia: "It did not go further, it did not succeed, because there was not enough will for the feat." But it would be good to keep this surge in your memory. This rarely happens. These are treasures in gray.

The one you are writing about is familiar to me, although he probably does not remember me (we met more than once in the editorial office in a trio with Fr. Peter Gnedich). After all, we are talking about Ch.? If that's him, I'd like to know more about him. How does he live, what does he think? Rumors circulated in Moscow, and then everything was firmly forgotten. And he is a talented and necessary person. Could it be that his talents were disappearing? I don't know the book of the "oriental monk".

Regarding the Eucharist, I would like to say a few words to you. What did people need when there was a strange person walking among them, saying very strange things, surrounded by dubious types, prostitutes and men? What was needed? The feat of faith. Was it easy for Peter to say to the village Carpenter, "You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God"? And he said this out of inspiration incomprehensible to people. In the same way, His appearance in the flesh through the Church requires this feat of faith. Faith is our strength, dynamics, activity, creativity, breakthrough. If everything were as clear and clear as day, we would be in the passive position of "perceiving." And we are participants, co-workers, active units of the Church. This is what must be remembered in the face of the Eucharist, which is celebrated in earthly humiliation. And your ailment deepens this humiliation (for you)...

Do not read the exercises. They are for the healthy. I even wrote about it there, I think. These are auxiliary things that are not directly related to the case.

Be healthy and protected by God.

Your Archpriest. A. Men

I received a letter from K., but it was preliminary.  -------------